Green Apples

Green with ENVY, that is. I have recently admited to myself that I'm jealous of someone. I'm not going to give you any more details than that. It's going to be much more fun to hear all of you try to figure out who. LOL

It's a hard thing to admit to yourself that you are in fact JEALOUS. However, I have found it to be a most enlightening experiance. I'm probably making this sound like it's the first time in my life that I've ever been jealous, but it's not. I just seem to be really affected by it this time. Not the jealousy itself, but the examination that takes place when you are completly honest with yourself. When you ask questions like, "why am I jealous?" You seem to uncover things that were hidden somewhere inside you. You discover "the truth." And, let me tell you...the truth really does hurt sometimes. Painful though it may be, it's also a time to re-focus things. I just got out of bible study, so I'm kinda deep right now. Sorry.

Perhaps as Jack Nicholas says..."You can't handle the truth." So we ignore the warning signs, and don't deal with the jealousy, and it turns into anger. From there it can develop into bitterness,and pretty soon you're not just a green apple, you're a rotten apple with all kinds of worms and parasites. Okay, that mental picture was a little gross. LOL

It got me to thinkin' about the role that jealousy plays in relationships. I have known plenty of couples who experianced problems with this in their relationships. A little jealousy can be flattering, and even help to reveal someone's true feelings. But there is definately a line between flattery and "stop now or you will no longer have a girlfriend/boyfriend." BTW... That's an either or, not a bi-sexual thing. I've had one too many guy friends put their fists through windshields because they saw thier gal TALKING to another guy. One friend even went out and beat a tree to a pulp. (get it? HAHA) He had bloody knuckles and probably scars for the rest of his life. That's a little too extreme don't ya think? You're probably wondering what kind of friends I have. I will asure you they were quite normal until jealousy took over their brains. I've always thought that one should try to avoid situations in which they could make their significant other envious of their affections/attention towards another. But, I've come to the conclusion that it's just not that easy. Sometimes jealousy develops more out a of a person's insecurites rather than a just concern. Yep..that one hurt! Jealousy can cause you to blame everyone else in the situation but yourself. Ouch again! They say that love is blind, but I think their are other emotions that can blind us as well. Anger and jealousy being among the most intense emotions would certainly be capable of such a thing. Don't know why I wanted to blog about this, and it will probably go down in history as one of my most boring blogs. Right behind the one about the car air freshners. I'm sure I'll write more about apples and pineapples or some sort of fruit later.